Such Sweet Sorrow

I'm moving back to California.

I love New York, and I've been really, really happy here. But I also feel like I've accomplished what I came here to do, and its time to move on to the next step in my life... I'm just surprised that the next step is back on the West Coast. I really thought I was here to stay. But that shows what I know about the direction of my life. I'm happier when I relinquish control to the supernal and magnanimous higher power anyhow, so I'm not fighting it.

California feels like home, but New York has shaped who I've become. I hope the change has been for the better. I think that it has.

I have discovered yet again that change is difficult. Even when you want it, even when you're ready for it... change is difficult. I am literally aching to move on, to feel like I'm progressing towards something, but I can feel my heart bruising as I try to pry it from the grip of the City and the people here that I've fallen in love with.

I have been very very happy here.

Things I miss most about California...

1) Cars
2) Family
3) 360 days of sun
4) Correct grammar and pronunciation
5) Cars